I drop my sword and cry for just a while
Deep inside this armor
The warrior is a child. – Twila Paris -1984
Most days, my shield can cover the chinks in my armor. Today, the shield was heavy, my arms strained from the weight. Flanking arrows tested the chain-mail that normally deflects glancing blows. The foes that I face daily were reinforced by every little “supposed crisis” that came along.
I have leaned that the more you are able to do, the more indispensable you become, yet, it comes with a burden of more responsibility.
In the Parable of the Talents, the servants that returned a profit from the gold they had been entrusted with heard:
“Well done, good and faithful servant! You have been faithful with a few things; I will put you in charge of many things.” Matthew 25:21
Sounds familiar. But just because “I CAN do all things through Christ who gives me strength” Philippians 4:13 does not necessarily mean I NEED to do all things.
Tasks began to gather in my path, some warranted, others simply a result of apathy or foolishness. Adversaries to the left of me, jokers to the right, gathering like some Saturday morning cartoon villain, transforming into a Goliath beyond my control. Not having the strength to gather stones, nor the faith to wield a sling in battle, I retreated to a quiet place.
“I dropped my sword and cried for just a while.”
As I implored the Spirit to intercede on my behalf, because I did not know how to pray, I heard:
“My grace is sufficient for you, for my power is made perfect in weakness.”
“Therefore I will boast all the more gladly about my weaknesses, so that Christ’s power may rest on me. That is why, for Christ’s sake, I delight in weaknesses, in insults, in hardships, in persecutions, in difficulties. For when I am weak, then I am strong.” 2 Corinthians 12:9-10
Well rent me a blimp! I’ve got weakness to spare and a lot of boasting to do.
“But Jesus often withdrew to lonely places and prayed.” Luke 5:16
If the Son of God, the Almighty in human form, needed to withdraw to reflect and recharge, then I am in good company, stealing away moments in my busy day to breathe, and breathe in the breath of God.
I do indeed “go running home when I fall down”.
“Deep inside this armor the warrior is a child”, but the child of the Almighty Father.
Boasting in weakness
Patiently waiting for His perfect power
And Blessed in Great Measure
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