How Random is Random?

Headed to an early morning meeting, I anticipated challenges and distractions that may lie ahead. I’ve faced them before and when not prepared, failed miserably.

Arriving, I found the greatest threat had been called away to put out a fire across town (or cause one).
I took a breath, grateful, maybe even a little disappointed because I thought I was ready.

But how random was the random call that pulled them away? More than likely, I wasn’t as prepared as I needed to be. Thank you, Jesus.

On a random Tuesday, like any other Tuesday, I went to my usual breakfast/bible study spot. An older couple came in. Their usual table, their usual breakfast. I hadn’t seen them in a year or so, and I knew their health had been failing, so seeing them lifted my spirits.

On a random Tuesday, perhaps they got up and decided it was a good day to go out for breakfast.
I was running behind due to random traffic and randomly spending a few extra minutes in a hot shower, but there we were.

Conversation was good. Good for me. Hopefully good for them too.

But how random was all the random that led us there at the same time?

How much random do we see as random when it’s really not random, but the Hand of God?

How much random gets moved out of the way before we randomly get where we’re going?

 

Then there are other randoms.
COVID randomly took one and not the other.
Cancer seems to act the same way.
Brokenness strikes without warning and lingers without reason.

When and how the Lord heals such things may feel random too, but

HE is not random.

His Love for us is not random.
His Grace is not random.
His Sacrifice was not random.

The Truth is not random.

And we know that is all things, God works for the good of those who love Him, who have been called according to His purpose. Roman 8:28

Our affections vary.
God does not.

Our patience fails.
God does not.

There is purpose in all He leads us to and through.

Though we don’t understand,
God asks us to trust.

Not too comforting in the middle of it,
But we don’t know how far He’s carried us to this point.

One day we will look back and see that all the random was not truly random.

Just God placing the pieces.

 

His plan.
His time.

Gardens of HIS Choosing

Kindness is a seed planted in a garden we may never see. – adapted from a Greek proverb.

I was traveling a well-worn path of my own making, at times wondering why. Not as much doubt, as complacency.

In the faded pages of an old prayer book, Walter Rauschenbush thanked God for those who are masters of form and color and sound, who have the power to unlock in us the vast spaces of emotion. He prayed God would save them from the temptations which beset their powers.

Now, I consider myself an apprentice of many things and master of none, but the temptation to be drawn away from what I know is right and true? That I know too well.

Pastor Rauschenbusch prayed for me more than a hundred years ago, not knowing I would need it today.

I’m still learning from sermons Oswald Chambers wrote around the same time. A hundred years or more.

And letters the Apostle Paul wrote nearly two thousand years ago:

Let us not grow weary of doing good, for at the proper time we will reap a harvest if we do not give up. Galatians 6:9

Giving up is not an option, as my trainer would say, but passion? That’s another thing entirely.

The Greek proverb speaks of old men planting trees whose shade they will never sit beneath.

My scribbles may touch a heart in the moment and fade away, or perhaps reappear in a thousand years. Only God knows where He is taking it.

There is value in doing good, just for the sake of doing good. It’s what we are called to do.

So as long as the Lord lends a voice to the whispers in my heart, I will continue to pass them along.

Kindness.
Caring.
Gentle words.

We all have them to offer.

Planting seeds in gardens of His choosing.

Pasta for One


You expect to miss them on the big days.

Christmas.
Thanksgiving.
Easter.

But no one tells you about the smallest moments.

For me and my father, it was a Cowboy’s game. Now tears and Cowboy’s fans are not anything new, but this was different. For the first time, even in different houses, or even states, we were not watching the same game.

With my mother, it was a situation that required her left-handed hammer, an odd position where only a strong left hand would do.

Today, it was about pasta.

A friend had made her special sauce and spaghetti. She looked across the empty table and fussed at her late husband. “I made your favorite. You were supposed to be here to eat it. Do you know how hard it is to make pasta for one?”

Small moments.
Small, quiet moments.

Jesus said to consider the lilies of the field and the birds of the air, insignificant to some, but beautifully made and cared for.

The smallest of things.

But not a tear is wasted. Psalm 56 says God puts my tears in a bottle, preserving something precious.

Jesus sat opposite the place where the crowd put money in the temple treasury. Many rich people threw in large amounts, but a poor widow placed two small copper coins.

Calling His disciples to Him, Jesus said, “Truly I tell you, this poor widow has put more into the treasury than all the others. They all gave out of their wealth; but she, out of her poverty, put in everything. All she had to live on.” Mark 12:43-44

God is with you in the smallest of things.
The smallest of moments.
Your tears are not overlooked.
Not forgotten.

He keeps them in His bottle.

He writes them in His book.

God remembers them.

 

It may not make eating pasta for one easier.

But I pray, one day it will.

 

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Deeper


The water is clear and safe in the shallow end. The deeper it gets, the darker it gets, until you can’t reach the bottom. Then it’s sink or swim.

Somewhere in the Pacific Ocean, the earth falls away into the Mariana Trench, nearly seven miles down. So deep, sunlight has never reached it. The pressure so strong that none could survive there.

Looking into a well, light fades into darkness long before it reaches the water.

There is depth.
And it is dark.

But nothing like the deepest corners of a heart, broken by
Great loss.
Greater struggle.
Constant failure.
Sin that won’t let go.
Inadequacy.

There is depth.
And it is dark.

You grasp, and scrape, and climb only to find you haven’t moved.

The walls are too steep.
The darkness too thick.
The distance too far.

And the worst part is knowing you dug some of it yourself.

Memories of the light are but a childhood dream fading into the mist like a vapor.

You hear a voice calling from the depths. You’ve lived so long in the darkness you don’t know how to listen for anything else.

Yet there is another voice.
One you knew long ago.
One Who could never forget nor forsake you.

Where can I go from Your Spirit? Where can I flee from Your presence? If I go to the heavens, You are there. If I make my bed in the depths, You are there. If I rise on the wings of the dawn, if I settle on the far side of the sea, even there, Your hand will guide me, Your right hand will hold me fast. Psalm 139:7-10

There is no distance too far that the Hand of God cannot rescue you.

There is no stain so dark that the blood of Christ cannot cleanse you.

There is no cry so deep that the Heart of God cannot hear you.

Seek the Lord while He may be found; call upon Him while He is near. Isaiah 55:6

Peter began to sink beneath the crashing waves and cried out, “Lord, save me!”

Jesus immediately reached out His hand and took hold of him. Matthew 14:31

Immediately.

The Hand that pulled Peter from the waves can reach deeper… much deeper… as deep as you have fallen.

Father, I pray You will gather the hearts lost in the darkness and draw them back into Your loving arms.

Amen…

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Beyond the Words

My father would say:
“You have two eyes, two ears, and one mouth. Use them in that order and in that proportion.”

But as is usually the case, his wisdom came well after I had done the opposite.

I have a friend who while exchanging pleasantries said they were okay. Consumed by thoughts of the business at hand, the subject quickly changed.

It wasn’t until we parted ways that the weight of our encounter hit me. Was there more to okay than just okay? How blind was I not to notice? How trivial was our discussion in the light of eternity? Or in the state of their heart… or mine?

Reaching deeper could have offered the opportunity to speak of things that mattered.
Or just a kind shoulder to lean on if only for a moment.

I felt the pain of not listening beyond the words.

 

Then my morning prayers read:

Lay not the misusing of my morning hours to my charge. While there is yet time, let me bring the day to victory.
May I forget myself and work the work of Him who sent me here.
Deliver us from all unkindness, from offense given or taken.
May my soul never murmur at Thine gentle chastisement and Fatherly correction.

Regret settled in deeper.

Perhaps there was more I should have said.

But therein lies the problem.

Perhaps there was more the Lord would have had me say… or not.

Father, please forgive my weakness. Help me make amends for my carelessness and to do what You would have me do.

To learn.

To listen.

 

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The Hand I’ll Never Wash

We were at the San Antonio rodeo, seats on the rail. Afterwards, the musical guest was one of our daughter’s favorites. The tradition was for the artist to ride in the back of a pretty, new pickup around the arena. That night, she got close enough to touch the fans, and one in particular, our daughter. She held up her hand like one of those “I’ll never wash this hand again” moments.

Years later, we had seats behind the basket at the Silvers Stars game – our WNBA team. Our daughter stood up near the aisle after the game, not for an autograph or shoes or anything, just a random high five and maybe a picture if she was lucky. That day, one of the most dominant post players slapped a sweaty hand against hers. She looked at me with that same look. “I’m not washing this hand,” and she didn’t. Not until she wiped what was left of the sweat on her basketball shoes to capture some of the grit, the excellence.

Today, we were at a service of celebration for a life well lived. Communion was by intinction where you dipped the bread into the wine before eating it.

And He took bread, gave thanks and broke it, and gave it to them, saying, “This is My body given for you; do this in remembrance of Me.” Luke 22:19

Remembrance.
The words hung heavily in my heart.

I’ve been known to drip at times, so I held my left hand under the wine-soaked bread. And sure enough, I dripped.

But it landed directly into the hollow of my hand. The very spot that is often depicted as where the nails pierced Jesus.

The spot tingled, as if the wine had soaked all the way in. This was not just a remembrance of Jesus offering His body and blood as a sacrifice for me, this was the place where they pounded the nails through.

The pain.

The agony.

The crying out to forgive them for they know not what they do.

And His final words, “It is finished.”

 

All for me.

All in the palm of my hand.

 

I have since washed my hand, but I can still feel the drop of His Blood, how it pierced inside and out.

Remembrance.

 

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Echo of Silence

Very early in the morning, while it was still dark, Jesus got up, left the house and went off to a solitary place where He prayed. Mark 1:35

Quiet comes in many forms.

Jesus found solace while the world slept.
Seeking the Father.
Praying.
Recharging.

The early morning is quiet, short of a rooster making his presence known. The air is fresh, the coffee is warm. Time to reflect on the day ahead before the noise of yesterday returns.

There is the elusive quiet we seek, beyond screaming clients, screaming colleagues or screaming children. A moment to live between our ears, to ponder faith and the mysteries of life, or just to be.

Then there is the quiet that appears uninvited.

A kitchen that used to rattle with the sounds of pots and pans, and the aroma that floated throughout.

An empty chair where laughter once roared over a table full of family and friends.

Once hugs have been given and grandbabies are headed back home, a different quiet returns.

A deafening silence.

Emptiness.

 

Some long for just a moment of quiet, while others dread the hours between sundown and sunrise.

There’s a reason God often speaks in these moments. Not that He just arrived, but that He’s always been there, filling the space.

As a canyon fades into the evening mist, echoes reveal how powerful the river was. The louder the echo, the greater the sound that filled the space.

Within these four walls, memories appear in every corner then fade into reality.
The silence rests heavily on the chest.

 

Yet, as with the canyon, the louder the echo, the greater the love that filled the space.

God is there in the stillness, in the deepest corners of a broken heart. He allows memories of the greatest loves we’ve known, as a reminder of how He loves.

That much…
and more.

 

One day, the quiet will still ache… but just enough to hear.

The echo of laughter.

The memory of years shared.

And the gentle voice of a Loving God reminding us that

Love is never truly lost.

Fine Line

Martha, Martha,” the Lord answered, “you are worried and upset about many things, but few things are needed—or indeed only one. Mary has chosen what is better, and it will not be taken away from her.” Luke 10:41-42

Martha was distracted by the preparations that had to be made while her sister Mary sat at the Lord’s feet listening.

There is a fine line between concern and worry, trusting in God’s timing and being consumed by preparations, overwhelmed to point where we can neither move forward or backward, frozen in fear of what’s ahead.

Jesus said not to worry about what we will eat or drink or wear, for our Heavenly Father knows we need these things.

But seek first his kingdom and his righteousness, and all these things will be given to you as well. Matthew 6:33

But does that mean to trust blindly, being numb, or even apathetic to the challenges we face?

Mary chose the better path, to sit and listen to Jesus, but there still was work to do.
There has to be a balance.
Walking a fine line.

Does not worrying mean to ignore the problem or pretend everything is fine? Life is not that easy.

Concern, on the other hand, is caring about something enough that it matters and trusting God with what you cannot control (and even what you think you can).

Jesus cared deeply about people, injustice, and suffering. He acted decisively but never in panic or frantic urgency. His rhythm was to:

Engage the problem
Trust the Father
Move forward in peace.

It seems it was easier for Him, being truly One with the Father, and I admittedly am not, at least not where I want to be. And Jesus had a few more things to be concerned about than my meager challenges.

I engage a problem, I pray, and I wait – not too patiently I might add.

I wonder what it was like for Jesus to wait. To be so in tune with the Father’s will but wondering why His will allowed some things and not others. I know I struggle with it.

I try to place every concern at the Lord’s feet and trust… and wait.
My battle is to ignore the things that turn concern into worry:

Staring at the phone, waiting for it to ring, or not.

Waiting for the doctor to say everything went well, or not.

Watching the clock tick, tick, tick, slower each time.

When the Lord comes through, and He always does, I exhale a breath I didn’t realize I’ve been holding all day
And tears flow.

Gratitude.
Relief.
Embarrassed that I didn’t trust enough
Even though I know He can and know He will.

Father, take this weakness.
Re-mold it into faith.
That One day, I won’t need to worry.
Only trust.

Amen…

Weeds

Emptied.
Hungry. Tired. Burned out.
All of the above.
Exhausted.

Warm water running down my face failed to ignite the synapses between my ears.

Dull.
Spent.
Taking one lifeless step after another.

It is in these moments my mind is fertile ground for whatever takes root, and of course, weeds grow faster than everything else.

What went wrong last week.
What could go wrong this week.
How good that warm bed looks and
Do I really need to go to work today?

Fighting through the weeds, other seeds broke through:

Finally, brothers and sisters, whatever is true, whatever is noble, whatever is right, whatever is pure, whatever is lovely, whatever is admirable—if anything is excellent or praiseworthy—think about such things. Philippians 4:8

Whatever you do, work at it with all your heart, as working for the Lord, not for human masters. Colossians 3:23

Trust in the Lord with all your heart and lean not on your own understanding; Proverbs 3:5

Now there’s one I can wrap my weary head around. Leaning not on my own understanding should be easy today. There’s none to lean on.

Then the Lord said, “Trust Me.”
Two words.
That’s all.

Trust Me

I continued my commute, barely missing a sideswipe from a car in my blind spot.
Only by the Lord’s Hand.

Blind spot.
Unaware.
Empty.

Again,
Trust Me

Perhaps I needed to be emptied, to be humbled.
I am an empty vessel needing to be filled.

Father, lift me.
Fill me.
Walk with me.

Turning a corner, the sunrise pierced through my sleepy eyes. Normally an annoyance, but today? A welcome answer, warmth to grow good seed past bad weeds.

Lord, I am empty.

I know.
Trust Me.

Then Jesus said:
And surely, I am with you always, to the very end of the age. Matthew 28:20

 

Amen…

Braids of Faith

By the time I reached our little piece of South Texas, the sun had slipped below the horizon. A gentle kiss and a warm hug lifted my spirits, but not my shoulders, bent over from a week of pushing plows and washing feet. The aroma of freshly baked cornbread filled my senses but could not erase the stench of all I had left behind. I struggled to light a fire to take the chill out of the air before it was finally time to find my pillow.

Days of successes and failures replayed as I stared at the ceiling. There would be little sleep tonight, again.
Then, a whisper:

Come to Me, all you who are weary and burdened.  I will give you rest. Matthew 11:28

With the little I had left, I surrendered.

I awoke to a deep, easy breath, grateful that God’s mercies are new every morning.

Sunday.
Sabbath.
Holy.

The Lord rested on the seventh day when His work was complete and wants us to do the same.

Hebrews chapter 4 ties this kind of rest to a completely different one. Those who had hardened their hearts and angered the Lord were not allowed into the land He had chosen, or as Psalm 95 said, “They shall never enter My rest.”
That rest was not the temporary that I needed so badly, but eternal, in the presence of the Lord.

The Sabbath we know is a holy pause, a celebration of completion – after six days of creation, or six days of our own toil. Psalm 95 tells of a Sabbath as well, a holy celebration of completion, the end of days, the final victory. Amen.

When Jesus offers us His rest, it is both temporary and eternal – relief for the weary today and the promise of God’s completion yet to come.

From Genesis to the Psalms, the Gospels to Revelations, Sabbath rest is elegantly braided throughout Scripture. Each strand strong on its own, but intertwined, the truth is unbreakable. God desires not only to give us rest, but to share in His own.

Rest is not the absence of God’s work, but the completion of it.

Finished
Sacred
Eternal